Jan 2, 2015

Christmas 2014

pocketofblossoms: christmas 2014

in my mind, i had a pinterest-perfect christmas blog post planned. 
complete with: yummy food, cute cousins, a swoon-worthy christmas outfit, and adorable decor.

christmas was different this year for my family. in a couple weeks, i'll be able to post an explanation as to why it was different. but, for right now, i can't say the ultimate reason why.

when i say christmas was different i mean...

i wanted it to be over from the moment i woke up,
i didn't want to open my presents,
i bawled all morning long,
i didn't feel like taking any pictures,
it didn't feel like christmas.

this post might be a little pointless because i can't explain to you why this happened, but its just therapeutic for me. 

i also want to say that although christmas wasn't quite christmas this year, i still have a lot to be grateful for. my mom and i were talking about other people we know that have it so much harder than we did this time of year.

although it was a rough christmas, i wouldn't trade my trials for anyone else's. there is always someone who has it worse than i do. 


i have so much to be thankful for. and i am thankful.

i am thankful for...
a father in heaven who watches over his children,
a savior who knows my heartache,
a family that loves me, 
a comfortable home,
food on the table,
my education, 
a fiancé who is my best friend.

my family, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins all went to a soup kitchen the day after christmas. we handed out "blessing bags" to those who were walking in to get a meal. the bag had some hygiene items and a mcdonald's gift card. 

i didn't really think these people would appreciate the bags. i don't know that i would appreciate a mcdonalds gift card.

but their eyes lit up. they were so grateful. 

christmas was not fun for me. it didn't feel like christmas. i was really sad.
but i'm grateful for all that i have.
there are so many who have so little. 

i'm grateful for the experiences heavenly father blessed me with,
so that i can see just how much i have to be thankful for.

stay tuned for next year's pinterest-perfect christmas post!
jokes jokes jokes jokes jokes :)
to be continued


  1. aww sweetie i am so so sorry to hear that you felt like that at chrsitmas... i hope that whatever is going on in your life sorts its self out and i wish you all the happiness in 2015! keep smiling lovely! id love it if youd comment back http://www.amyelizabethfashion.com/2015/01/topshop-beauty-haul.html xx

  2. Awe, so sad that Christmas wasn't that good. I hope that you will find piece and relief soon. If you need anything let me know.



  3. I am so sorry you are having a hard time!! I hope that whatever you are going through turns out to be a blessing! I love reading your blog and learning more about you! I can just tell you are one of the most genuine girls out there!

  4. I hope you are doing OK! Hope these next few weeks are a bit happier for you.

  5. It's hard when we are hoping for a Pinterest-ready Christmas! Hope you have a happy new year!!

  6. So sorry to hear your Christmas was not what it usually is. Truly hope that whatever is going on at the moment gets better! Much love to you! <3

    - MeYouandHayleyLarue.com

  7. Just stumbled upon your blog. So beautiful.

    I am devastated to hear that your Christmas wasn't ideal. That is unfair, everyone deserves a beautiful Christmas. I hope whatever is going on, is okay now or at least will be. I am sure our thoughts are with you. x

    Merry belated Christmas and happy 2015! :)


  8. thanks c! that means a lot to me :)

  9. Good for you for choosing to have a positive attitude!

    “Anyone who imagines that bliss is normal is going to waste a lot of time running around shouting that he’s been robbed. The fact is that most putts don’t drop, most beef is tough, most children grow up to just be people, most successful marriages require a high degree of mutual toleration, most jobs are more often dull than otherwise. Life is like an old time rail journey…delays…sidetracks, smoke, dust, cinders and jolts, interspersed only occasionally by beautiful vistas and thrilling burst of speed. The trick is to thank the Lord for letting you have the ride.” -Gordon B. Hinckley


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